Not sure what has come over me but I have been feeling a little restless lately. I need a new project to get involved in – something that will give me a higher purpose other than just going to work and coming home.
A few months ago, my tenure as a Trustee for the charity I was involved in, came to an abrupt end. It was my decision to leave. I could no longer work with a team where real leadership was lacking and where others, who had only arrived on the team, where already pitching their tents and demarcating their sacred territory without room for discussion. Not conducive to good team work. Rather than descend into chaos and divert energies away from the very job the charity was set up to do, I resolved it was better to let others take the reins and run. I am not power hungry. I also have no patience to deal with inflated male egos. I’ve seen my share of how much ruin that scenario can bring…
But where one door closes, another opens and being the philosophical person that I am, I interpret this occurence as Allah guiding me onto something else. No regrets. Move on. I am now standing on the ridge of a hill and looking out at the vista. Whilst taking it all in and marvelling at life, my roving eye is wondering where to fix my stance on next. What will my next mission be in life?
The one thing I do know is that it has to be something out of my comfort zone and in the service of others. This isn’t the same as being used or taken for granted. I intend to protect my own interests (which is why I resigned from the previous charity last year). In an ideal situation, I would love to find paid employment that is in the field of the charitable sector. That would provide the best of both worlds.
I am in a race against time now. However short or long my life is from here, it’s clear that not much time is left. And some people may argue that I am not doing enough to bring about the changes I so desire. Maybe there is some truth in that. But I also know, that as a Muslim, it’s not always about reaching the destination but the journey itself. Making the intention is what counts. That’s the first hurdle I have crossed already, inshaAllah. The next is to try and see that intention materialise into something tangible and real.
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