In recent months, I’ve often thought about the idea of calling it a day with my online blog. I don’t have as much traffic as I used to in terms of views by others but I guess that’s because I don’t bother share it on my Instagram page or elsewhere as I used to before. It’s not that I ever had a deluge of readers at any point to be honest.
Maybe it’s because I vowed from an eary stage never to obsess with how many people read my blogs or how many likes I would get. And for the most part, I can honestly say I have remained true to my word. I have even gone weeks without sharing any posts anywhere on social media (not that I have a presence anywhere other than Instagram or Facebook). I refuse to succumb to the evils and perils of a social media presence. It is something that has never imbued within me a deep desire or interest in the first place.
To be honest, the objective of my writing was never to gain a following in and of itself. I started this writing journey to alleviate my own pain and frustration as I ventured into unchartered territory as a mother on her own with young children. It was an open expression of a very private journey; a shared record of me unashamedly admitting to my stumbling blocks, my weaknesses, my fears but also my accomplishments, big or small. It was always intended to be a cathartic relief and it has been every bit that, Alhamdulillah.
So, it doesn’t matter if the world is with me or not. Writing this blog for me is like sitting on the beach at the edge of the seashore and talking to the wind and letting my words be carried out into the far distance. Whether anyone else hears them or not is not the objective. It’s the relief that comes with unburdening myself and offloading. Along the way, I have confessed to myself my own strengths and weaknesses and everything else in- between. The net result has been edifying. If anyone out there does find solace from my writings, then Alhamdulillah. I would have done a service to them without even having known this to be the case.
Right now in my life, I do feel it’s time to move to my next phase/chapter/mission and take on a more serious writing goal. This isn’t to say I will end the blog writing itself. But I have been inspired by older people who I’ve seen take up new challenges in their later lives, be it sports, a new profession, a hobby etc. and I don’t want to be someone who will regret never having tried, even if I don’t succeed. I don’t want to say too much now whilst I haven’t done enough yet to actualise my thoughts but insha’Allah, I will die trying even if I never hit my goal. I hope one day to return to provide an update on this ongoing mission.
Suffice to say, I believe that Allah has put me in this situation in my life now because He wants me to maximise my potential and because He knows I will at least strive to achieve certain things in life. I think the time is right to strike the iron whilst it is hot.
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